Blind Eyes Closed

----The time is now. ----"Sometimes someone says something really small and it just fits into this empty place in your heart."

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If you could look like anything...anything at all....what would you look like? I'd be the wind. ...........It's easy to be someone's friend when all you need is someone to console you. It's much harder to be there for them when they're happy all the time. .............Even when I say nothing, it's a beautiful use of negative space.

Blind Eyes Closed

Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Ways to not do math #1:

Full name: Nora Seidman
Nicknames: Noby, Conch
Sex: Female
Age: 20
Birthday: 2/5/84
Birth place: Evanston, IL
Current residence: Rochester, New York
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius
Parents names: Jon and Amy
Sibling's names and ages: Anna, 22
Pets: Anna, 22

Favorites:
Colors: deep Green
Animals: polar bears (this is a new one)
Cartoon Characters: Master Shake
Actresses: Claire Danes
Actors: Willam Dufoe
Movies: Bowling for Columbine, Princess and the Warrier, Donnie Darko
Types of music: Punk, electronica, things that sound good
Bands/Groups: LTJ, Mustard Plug are big
CDs: my mixes
Foods: nooooodles
Ice creams: mint chocolate chip
Cookies: homemade chocolate chip
Veggies: potatoes, carrots
Fruits: Mango, pineapple, red apples
Candies: I'm a chocolate girl
Beverages: Peach/Raspberry Iced Tea
Cereals: Lucky Charms, haha
Websites: this one
Music videos: A-ha - Take On Me where they're running through the newspaper. That & anything Michael Jackson
Gum: whatever's in my purse
Pizza toppings: pineapple & olives
Fast food joints: Wendys
Fast food meals: chicken things
Restaurant: in Rochester, King & I
Outfits: I don't think about things like this
Stores: I can't go into Best Buy without spending more than I should

Love Life
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no, but it feels like it
If so, who are they?: guess
Do you love them?: yes
How long have you been dating?:
Do you have a crush?: if this counts, yes
Would you rather be single or taken right now?: taken
How many people have you dated this past year?: none
How many people have you kissed in your life?: plenty
How many people have you said "I love you too" and meant it?: a lot, but I love people in different contexts
If you didn't mean it, why did you say it?: I say it when I mean "I appreciate you", so I guess that's kind of like lying...
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: damn yes
Are you friends with your ex/exes?: Yes, some
Have you ever cheated on someone?: a long time ago
Have you ever been cheated on?: yep
What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: I don't think it's necessarily romantic, but josh told me once while he was drunk that if I was dead, he would kill himself because he'd have no one to live for. That was the best compliment I can remember receiving.
What do you look for in your ideal mate?: not necessarily someone who's just like me, but someone who's style compliments mine
Are you a virgin?: no
What do you think of abortion?: as long as it's safe
Suicide?: too sad
Flag burning?: sometimes, you just gotta burn something
War?: sucks
Pop music?: If it's good, it's good. If it's not, it's not

What Did You Do...
Last weekend?: Spent most of it with Josh
Yesturday?: classes, went to Michaels, the mall, Target, & wilson commons
Your last birthday?: saw Yellowcard with Josh, Doug, & Mona
New Years Eve?: Hannah's place calling people an hour ahead of me & asking them what it feels like to be in the new year while I was left behind
Valentines Day?: got Josh a serenade, goth clubbing
Easter?: nothing out of the ordinary
4th of July?: hung out with my mom
Halloween?: threw a costume party
Thanksgiving?: small thanksgiving dinner & big reception
Christmas Eve?: Vietnamese part of town with family
Christmas Day?: got really annoyed at listening to Elmo sing & do the hokey pokey in spanish

What do you think you'll be doing in...
A week from now?: having a panick attack
A month from now?: working
A year from now?: same thing I'm doing today, but lonlier

This or That
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Chocolate
Mom or Dad?: Mom
Blonde or Brunette?: red-head
Cartoon Network or Nickelodeon?: cartoon network
Spicy or Minty gum?: Minty
Heaven or Hell?: dreaming
Nsync or Backstreet Boys?: iiiiii want it thaaaaaat way
The Beatles or The Rolling Stones?: beatles, usually
Boys or Girls?: girls suck
France or England?: England
Cookies or Cake?: Cookies
Flower or Candy?: Candy
Doctors or Dentist?: Dentist

Ever Been Called...
Dumb?: Yes
Retarted?: Yes
Ugly?: Yes
Hot?: Yes
Fat?: yes
Anorexic?: yes, but I think they were kidding (were you?)
A waste of space?: No
Useless?: no
Sexy?: Yes
Smelly?: not seriously
A Slut?: Yes
Beautiful?: yes
Smart?: Yes
Quiet?: Yes
Boring?: Yes
A Bitch?: Yes
Rebel?: Yes
Conceited?: No

Currently
What are you wearing?: nothing but a smile (**note: I'm joking)
Who are you talking to?: No one
How is the weather?: chillier than it was earlier today
What are you listening to?: little bit of Reel Big Fish
What/Who are you thinking about?: how I'm about to go do some math homework, hopefully with Josh in the room
What are you eating/drinking?: nothing
What are you looking forward to?: being less stressed
What are you dreading?: fighting
How are you feeling?: not really feeling anything
How is your hair?: normal
What time is it?: 8:44 pm
What are you anoyed by?: intolerance

Emotions
What emotion do you feel the most?: numb
What emotion is the best?: love
Worst?: disdain
What songs make you cry?: the most: "In My Life" by the Beatles
What movies make you cry?: I was almost bawling at Big Fish
What always cheers you up?: I usually feel better with a sincere hug, knowing someone cares that I'm upset
What make you madder than anything?: people who aren't willing to meet halfway
What hurts you the most?: when I'm blamed for things that aren't my fault
Which person always makes you happy? Josh is who I go to for emotional support.
Depressed?: shit happens
Are you a really emotional person?: when I let myself
What do you do when you're depressed?: lay down and be numb
What song do you think was written about your life?: Less Than Jake - Is This Thing On?

When Was The Last Time You..
Farted?: a long time ago
Burped?: umm I think last night when I had a burping contest with Josh
Had sex?: summer before senior year
Went to the movies?: non-cg: Eternal Sunshine a week and a half ago, cg: House of Sand & Fog on saturday
Went out to eat?: I guess Saturday when Josh & I had lunch/dinner at the mall, before that it was somewhere with Mom
Cried?: last night
Got dumped?: Eleanor, I guess. After that it was kind of mutual.
Dumped someone?: umm....must have been sophomore year with Max.
Threw up?: I throw up constantly.
Peed?: few hours ago
Went skating?: last semester sometime
Went for a walk?: depressingly long time
Ate ice cream?: Last night
Got into a fight?: continuous

Issues
Do you do drugs?: not really
Do you have a mental disablity?: No
Are you on any medication for any type of disorder?: No
What kind?: --
Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder?: small appetite?
What kinds of illnesses run in your family?: cancer, high blood pressure, heart attack, my sister has Turners Syndrome but that's not genetic

Who was the last person you...
Talked to?: Dan
Yelled at?: Myself
Kissed?: Josh
Hugged?: Josh
Went out to eat with?: Josh if you count the mall
Talked to on the phone?: Mom
IMed?: ummm Jim I think
Fought with?: Josh
Worried about?: Josh
Wanted to kill?: no one
Cried over?: Josh
Thought about?: Josh

Are you...
Understanding?: I do my best
Pretty?: I've been told
Nice?: I try
A bitch?: Yes
Hard to get?: not really
Confident?: sometimes
Depressed?: a lot
Hyper?: sometimes
Popular?: according to Josh
Friendly?: yeah
Sexy?: I'm hawt, baby
Hungry?: I'm hardly ever hungry
Shy?: more scared than shy
Emotional?: yes
Messy?: nope
Immature?: I can be
Sad?: Yes
Trusting?: only with a few people
Healthy?: I guess
Sleepy?: always
Lonely?: sometimes
Independent?: not really

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