If you could look like anything...anything at all....what would you look like? I'd be the wind.
...........It's easy to be someone's friend when all you need is someone to console you. It's much harder to be there for them when they're happy all the time.
.............Even when I say nothing, it's a beautiful use of negative space.
Blind Eyes Closed
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
helppp
oh for fuck's sake, how do you get this new format of blogger to republish my freakin' archives? i miss them.
p.s. i totally had something poetic and beautiful to say. and now i'm too angry.
Monday, January 29, 2007
What's Your Man Got to Do with Me?
For Erik, who still refuses to perform this song with me but will still listen to it nonetheless:
Sunday, January 28, 2007
invocation
i'm still not sure what to say tomorrow, but i have a couple ideas.
the first one involves how Nathaniel Seidman had his heart attack in 1966, when he was 47, although i spent my entire childhood believing he was 49. Then, in 2002, his son died at the exact same age. and while i'm kind of joking when i say that i expect to die in 2031, i'm kind of not.
the second idea is more whining about missing my dad. mom told me stories tonight of the day he died, and how considerate he was even then. he was on the brink of leaving all day, and when jan and paul arrived, i took them back there to see him with mom. and mom told me that i didn't have to stay, so i left the room and sat with our other guests. and about ten minutes later, he was gone. so not only did he wait for his daughter to leave the room, he waited for my mom to have support.
i can't type this without crying. how could i ever say it out loud?
oh, my dear...
I love Erik because i can text him out of the blue with "dj french vanilla?" and he knows what i'm talking about. this is the kind of compatibility i miss.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
inventory list
i'm really excited about this semester, although i expect that to fade over the course of the coming months as it sets in that i'm actually going to have to work and be stressed out and all that jazz.
as my first assignment for DDB, i've been instructed to make a list of everyone i've ever known who is no longer alive. starting with the obvious:
Jonathan Seidman October 27 2002 Virginia Seidman February 1998 Virginia Millen Summer 2003 Jim Mullen December 27 2006 Sean Roberts September 7 2003 Amanda Lennox October 2006 Lorraine Ament December 2004 Sylvia Hestel Guy Nodot 1996 Carlton Crosley December 1998
