Monday, March 25, 2002
I just came home from an amazing weekend in wonderful New York City. It was our synagogue's senior trip. I think I can sum the whole thing up into two groups of two words: Absolutely Amazing and Spiritual uplift. I think I really did reach a new peak in my Judaism....
We went to three congragations on Shabbat to share their prayer. Friday night we went to P'nai Jerurun, this Conservative synagogue that's kind of the model for singing and spirituality. So we danced with them around the sanctuary. It was amazing. We walked from there to rabbi London's friend's house for dinner and Alissa and I danced down the streets of New York belting Alan music at the top of our lungs. One of the most amazing nights ever.
Saturday morning we went to a Reconstructionist congregation, and they invited us onto the bima to join them in the prayer to read torah. And they sung Mi Sheberach, my favorite prayer. Although I like the Jeff Klepper melody better. It always makes me feel very connected to go to congregations around the country and hear the same prayers.
The third congregation was an orthadox shul. The women were in this little separate thing....almost a separate room but the wall only came halfway up. It was still kinda shotty....
All in all an uplifting weekend. I'll post more stories as they come up, there was much more to the weekend than judaism. :-)
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Saturday, March 16, 2002
Just kinda because "what else am I going to do?" and Alissa said she didn't think anyone else would respond. So HA! ;-)
1. IF YOU COULD BUILD YOUR HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE
WOULD IT BE? My dream house (location too, I guess) was this one that was accross the lake from Echo. Now that I'm not-so in love with Echo, I still love the house 'cause it's such a beautiful spot.
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? After being dragged (okay, I guess I went willingly...) clubbing with Nik and Rebecca and Rebecca made the comment "and Nora, why aren't your clothes just CLINGING to your body?" and I realized I didn't own any that did, I figured I'm most comfortable in my brown pants and Less Than Jake hoodie.
3. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE
OPPOSITE SEX? I love being able to look into someone's eyes and see love.
4. WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT? Punk-o-rama 1 (which is lost somewhere in Erik's car) and Poetry to classical music.
5. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? I've always looked forward to concerts. Being at the cafe and absorbing the atmosphere when Alan's playing has always been amazing, and when Ruthie & Alan took me to the Fireside after I hadn't been there in over a year and I could close my eyes and feel the music running through my heart I felt very at-home.
6. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? There's no place I really dread. I guess it always sucks to be someplace with people that you don't matter to or don't think you're worthwhile.
7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED?
lower back and feet. I actually find it very relaxing to give other people foot massages, but if you want one you'll have to wash your feet in the sink first 'cause I don't touch dirty feet. And I guess hand massages are very nice, although I've only had one good one (thank you, dan)
8. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN
BODY? Physical strength is extremely overrated.
9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? My alarm goes off around 7:00, but I don't really get out of bed until 7:15.
10. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW? I rarely watch tv nowadays. I've become increasingly addicted to Disney Channel original movies thanks to Sarah Rios, so I watch a lot of those, and english has made the Simpsons ever-so-much-more enjoyable now that I get so many of the references.
11. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? I don't spend much time in the kitchen. I guess I would if I went back to mitsuwa and got that hello-kitty waffle iron or the dinosaur toaster (it burns dinosaurs into your toast! What else could you ever ask for?)
12. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE CHILDHOOD MEMORY? Listening to my grampa tell us stories that involved wiggling his ears, and playing in our house in Wisconsin. I'd like to go back and visit sometime.
13. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? Grant's always had a gift, but it really isn't hard to amuse me. When I was a baby my mother would put me on the kitchen counter and hang measuring spoons in front of my face, and I would sit and hit them (and giggle) for hours.
14. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? When people assume I have nothing to say when I really do. When people don't listen. When people don't have regard for other people's opinions or feelings, so everything comes out offensive.
16. FAVORITE RESTAURANT/CAFE/EATERY? It's all about Dixie Kitchen and Trattoria Demi. And Kafein, of course.
17. SCARIEST MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE? When my mother told me my dad has cancer.
18. IF THERE WAS A MOVIE MADE ABOUT YOU, WHAT
CURRENT/FORMER HOLLYWOOD STAR WOULD PLAY YOU?
I've been told I could be played by Claire Danes, which makes me EXTREMELY happy (I <3 her so much).
19. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? Not really. I like to think that when we die we just lie down and dream forever.
20. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? I have a collection of "Nora" books. I think my favorites were "Nora's Stars" and "Busybody Nora".
21. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? It's all about winter. Yeah, being cold isn't all THAT fun, but it's so much more comfy to sit in front of a fire with hot cocoa than it is to sprawl out in front of an air-conditioner.
22. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? Cleaning my room. The state of my room has just gone straight downhill since I got home from Syracuse in August.
23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
"3. You cannot overdose on Vitamic C. So I got these "Halls Vitamin C Supplement Drops" that advertise that they're "100% Daily Value of Vitamin C in each drop." But they're so good! So naturally I had to finish off the bag the day I got them. 3000% of my daily value of Vitamic C. I'm working on the second bag. And while I'd hoped for some sort of citrus-related super power, according to Google, all I have to look forward to is nausea and diarrhea. Which are, I might add, the worst super powers ever. But then again, if we were going to have a "Really, Really Doesn't Have Scurvy Contest," I'd so win. "
I think I'd just like some Vitamin-C related super powers. (compliments of Ben Popik at www.tweebiscuit.net/ben)
24. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? nope. But if I got one it'd be the itsy-bitsy-spider around some toe (or so I thought in 7th grade. It's not going to happen.)
25. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST LOVE AND AT WHAT AGE? I always thought my first love was Erik a couple years ago, but then I started dating Grant and everything I ever felt for anyone else was extremely paled in comparison. It's amazing to be able to feel your heart going out to someone else, even if he lives in the middle of Missouri.
26. THE SONG YOU WISHED YOU HAD WRITTEN? I've given up on trying to kid myself into thinking I could write music. I've now grown to rely on other people writing it for me. :-P Mike Cheever owes me a song for coming to see him in writers showcase. But, of course, there are a few select Alan songs (I don't know what they're called) that never cease to amaze me every time I hear them.
27. DO YOU PREFER CATS OR DOGS? Dogs
28. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? Oh goodness I don't have the faintest idea. I'm kind of scared of my trunk. I think there are some Babysitter's Club videos and a couple blankets and some jumper cables.
29. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU E-MAILED THIS TO, WHO IS MOST
LIKELY TO RESPOND? no one, really. I've never sent these out expecting response, I just like thinking that maybe you're all learning something.
30. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU E-MAILED THIS TO WHO IS THE
LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Alissa since she sent this to me in the first place. And I guess Tom 'cause I haven't even talked to him in a number of months. (hi tom!)
31. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DAY? Wednesday. it's Hump Day! (the only thing I miss from Haven is mrs. Williams running up and down the halls on Wednesdays screaming "Happy Hump Day!!")
32. USING ONLY ONE WORD DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
I don't think I could do this for myself. You should all e-mail me back with one word that describes me.
33. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS
TO YOU! She didn't give me pink eye. And I love her to death for not being afraid to be herself.
(does anyone else ever miss these?)
1:10 AM
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Friday, March 15, 2002
I had a list of things I wanted to say. Now I can't remember most of them, but the manuscripts are probably still locked away in my memory somewhere.
I have a list of things I want to tell him. It's been going on for two and a half years, and still nothing's different. One of us should have grown out of it, something should have been resolved by all those times we've hurt each other intentionally to stop it. But nothing changes. We just take the blows and pretend that everything's okay. There's a running talley by now. I got hurt last so I guess it's my job to run the daggar next time.
I've always wanted the kind of eyes that truly are the window to my soul. If I'm happy I want eyes that will light up. I've always tried to make them - to me it feels like my eyes are shining when I'm happy, or that they're needles when I'm mad. I want my eyes to be the kind that shows that I have a question when I do, but no one bothers to look. My secret.
Hold me like a baby that will not fall asleep
curl me up inside you and let me hear you feel the heat
I'm in a romantic mood. I think I just need to be held and rocked, but right now that seems like a lot to ask for.
11:14 PM
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Monday, March 11, 2002
it's not the things you say, it's the way that you say them;
and it's not the way you look, it's the way you look at me
It was the first night in so long that we ended the night without being mad at each other. Pure bliss. Most people underestimate the absolute beauty of looking into someone else's eyes and still seeing love and not pain. I wanted to ask him about it, but was too scared of ruining the moment. That's a pure romantic for ya, I guess - always scared of ruining the beauty. Pity. I would have liked some answers.
10:06 PM
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Saturday, March 09, 2002
It seems rediculous to me that it's been a week since I posted that. Or near a week. Where does my time go? I'm really not popular; I don't really spend much time with other people. And I thought school was going well right now, except we just got a letter from school saying I'm Cing Calculus and Physics, which can't be right. Physics says I'm missing work, which is a worksheet from when I was sick. in calc I've aced the last two tests and done all of my homework, which, combined, is worth about 70% of my grade.
Taking time away from this monstrocity, I'm doing well. "Alone Time" is over, although I haven't spent time alone with Ruth yet. I took her out to chill with Micah, Gabe, and Alec last night (which was awesome), and it felt good to be able to kiss her, even if it wasn't sexual. I've missed her.
3:29 PM
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Monday, March 04, 2002
I'm at that critical point in the school year when I have to start thinking of graduation gifts for everyone. I started a painting for Nikki, and then when I showed her we decided on another subject matter that she'd like better. So I have a painting started and I don't know who to give it to. Maybe if I can get Ben here this summer...he'd appreciate my art. I'm actually on a mission to get my paintings in as many people's dorm rooms as I can. I already have a self-portrait in Grant's room and if Erik decides to take his landscape with him to college...I'm in the zone.
I know Nik and Alan, at least, are getting paintings. Everyone else I'm stumped on and it's going to drive me insane. But not now 'cause I'm too busy for that.
I'm seeing Josh next weekend. It's going to be agonizing because I'm so scared of what's going to happen; what's going to be said and who's going to end up hurt. Or maybe we'll surprise each other and things will go peacefully. It's been two months, anything could happen.
8:20 PM
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The number of acceptance certificates on my refrigerator has doubled. :-) Lawrence has now been added to the Pittsburgh party.
8:17 PM
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Saturday, March 02, 2002
On a lighter note, my "alone time" is over in 4 days. Ruth told me Thursday before she left for DC "On Wednesday when I get home let's go out to lunch. And by go out to lunch I mean go to your house, eat morning-star, and kick it." She's amazing.
4:16 PM
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Since my life has been so boring lately, I've been living the past week through other people's drama.
Erik, my best friend, has started dating Mary, who I fully approve of and adore. I was kind of pissed at first 'cause he didn't tell me about it (again) and I got to find out from someone else first (again), but I guess he's entitled to his privacy, as much as I'd hate to admit it. It's good to see someone make him so happy. When I asked him about it, he told me "it's always a big deal when I spend more than one day with someone in a weekend." He's been spending 3-4 days a week with her (or so it seems - I really haven't been counting). Which means he must be REALLY happy. My only worry so far is that this means he won't be spending time with me anymore. :-P But it's not a concern yet so we'll worry about that when it gets here.
Mary's party itself was wonderful. I only knew about half the people there, but I had fun with the kids I DID know. It just kind of sucked 'cause at any given point there was guaranteed to be a couple makin' out and it made me sad to be alone. Like once I was talkin' to some kids, and then Mary came by to claim Erik, and they started kissing so I turned around, and there was Max and Kara, and so I faced the last direction left and there was Amelia and Livio. I was literally surrounded. So I ran away. But they all deserve to be happy, and that makes me happy.
We had a juking-fest. It was great. I can't dance for shit, but no one cared and it was fun. I think Max and Erik were having a silent, un-spoken "who can dance worse" contest, and I think Max won 'cause he got a comment about it. We were jukin to "Get your freak on" and someone came up to him and whispered "I think you'd better get your freak off". He took it well, though, and decided he was going to table-dance with me but the table only holds one person, so we forgot about it.
4:15 PM
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